I do not exist, I faithfully insist.

Life is so crazy, especially lately. Things sometimes happen in life that we can't explain and can't find the reason for at the time. It's so hard to make sense out of events that seem too terrible to really be happening. But with that said, life really is an amazing journey that we should never take for granted.

Several of my friends recently lost someone that was very dear to them. Their dear friend Tyler committed suicide this week. Typing that sentence just feels weird and makes my stomach churn in a terrible way. When things like this happen it really shows us that all you can do is pray for the ones you love and hope and have faith that they make it through this terrible time without any "permanent scars." It really really breaks my heart that this person my age had to go through this. But I know he is in a better place and is probably more at peace than he ever was before. My heart just really goes out to Tyler's family & friends right now. And from what I've been told he was a really pure, good person which makes it all the much harder.

Also, recently my brother-in-law's sister, Jill, birthed a beautiful baby girl, Whitney. Whitney was born very premature and is really having to go through a lot but is such a little fighter. Jill and her husband Ben constantly amaze me with their strength during this time. I think having to go through this is going to make them who they really are. God has a plan for them and their little angel and if anybody deserves this baby and can give it the care it needs, it is them.

I hope anyone who reads this is embracing life for all that it is because it's truly amazing, as I learn daily. I find more joy right now in something that I never would have expected I would. I have a 7 month old niece and she is the light of my life. I can't explain how having her in my life makes me feel. Her being here has honestly changed my life and the lives of many of the people I love. My sister and her husband Brad are truly the most amazing parents Ella could have and seeing that brings me so much happiness. I really have the most amazing sister in the world who is going to raise the most amazing little person :) I have no doubt that Ella is going to be something amazing one day. Having a baby in your life can really put things into perspective. She is just this little ball of life that is always happy and smiling and is just so innocent. It gives me hope that there is still goodness in people.

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